I've been existing in a limbo ever since March, and me, I have long gotten stale. I simply don't live Life the way I used to. I don't smile the way I used to, I don't walk the way I used to, I don't sleep the way I used to, and I don't laugh the way I used to. I never wake up, stretch, then smile at the beauty of Mornings anymore. Maybe that's because Mornings are getting harsher, but then, I don't walk in late into the office and say hello to everyone I meet on the way, like how I used to. I don't strut down the underpass to the basement of Republic Plaza, thinking catty thoughts and feeling like I can conquer the world anymore.

I haven't been happy in a long, long, time.

So, this is what I'll do. Unhappiness spreads, and therefore I shall think happy thoughts. I'll sleep early, and I'll think Beautiful. I shall stop blaming myself for my grades, and I'll quit being embarrassed about it. For once, I'm going to believe that ABBCA1 is not that bad (in terms of my own standards for myself) after all. I'm not satisfied with it and I'm not happy about it, but I'm going to admit defeat and accept it anyway. I shall look towards university and I'll challenge my devils. And so, I'll attempt to join ntusb, and hope that I won't give them reason to laugh their asses off. I shall stop thinking that I'm never good enough for anything, and that I don't deserve what I have.

I'll stop being so harsh on myself, because it can't change anything. I'll remember that me not being harsh on myself does not mean that I'll forget.

I'll be sincere, and I'll hit the ground running.

Getting over things is often the most difficult, mainly because you have to admit, acknowledge and accept your own failure first. I fail, but I'm only human. And yes I'll stop telling myself that that is only excuse.

I can't help it, but if I have to be a pessimist, then by God, I'm gonna be a happy one.
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Cyn Ong.
Me, I'm 20.
I love rainy, cloudy weather.
The kind with lots & lots of
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Prettycolours, prettythings.

The same few people,
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Nancy.

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Xinyu. Fujing.

Junrong. Jiening. Wenting.

Vincent. Shirley. Allena.
Allena's Blogshop.
Kim.

Charissa. Tracy. Xinyi

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