Today was like a dream date. Good food, good movie. A great time relaxing(ggg) and a great time shopping. And as always, the best company.
My wrinkled nose grin and Wei's lopsided grin.
It was a good day. See Wei's BIGGG smile.(:
I look retarded, but good food does that to me. It makes me feel all happy and sleepy.
All these belonged to us, as of 10pm.
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It was the sweetest thing anyone ever did for me, love. I truly enjoyed my spa treat today. Thank you and thank you again, sweetheart. I love you love you love you.((((:
Hello world. Time seems to be speeding up so fast so fast it feels like I'm being left behind. Hall camp is in three day's time, and its only ending on the 4th of August. I collected the keys to my room today, and I'm only gonna shift my stuff in on Sunday. I need to matriculate by the 3rd of August but I don't know how I'm supposed to do that when I'm in hall camp. I got driving lessons on Sundays and I hope lessons during the first week of school wouldn't be that important, cos I need to go for somemore driving lessons and then its driving test on the 17th and pleasepleaseplease let me pass cos there's too much at stake.
University is coming up at such a tremendous speed its freaking me out.
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Okay I started watching VJ videos on youtube and all of a sudden I'm missing VJ again, especially after watching the class video.):
05S43, you guys rock.((((((:
Heh I know I've posted this once, but I'm still going to post it again. Hee.
Omg I'm really so pissed right now I want to burst and cry. I feel like SUCH A BLOODY FOOL.
The two of you. You'd better not let me catch even a GLIMPSE of any one of you again, you bloody bastards. Even though I've only seen you guys for a few hours, but an ugly pole and a fat ass? Ha don't worry. ME, I remember YOU, brother. stuck in reverse ♥11:05 PM
So I'm back to readingMy Sister's Keeperfor the umpteenth time, and as always, it moves me.
"The new father finally hangs up the phone, laughing at absolutely nothing. 'Congratulations,' I say, when what I really want to tell him is to pick up that baby of his and hold her tight, to set the moon on the edge of her crib and to hang her name up in the stars so that she never, ever does to him what I have done to my parents."
Its not just the language. It is also the way Jodi Picoult links events, objects and emotions we experience daily that causes me to do a double take on Life. Specifically mine. She reminds me there are many things in life that are beautiful and it is really amazing how so many things are interlinked and how so many things go together when you bother to take note, if you bother to take note.
"My mother moves so fast that I do not even see it coming. But she slaps my face hard enough to make my head snap backward. She leaves a print that stains me long after it's faded. Just so you know: shame is five-fingered."
Few might find her books sappy, (haha Qixin you're so honest and so frank I can't help but love you) but I find them a refreshing and soothing read, especially on such a cool day, lying down on my bed in my lovely room and the windows thrown open, wide, with the clouds heavy with rain and the fresh, crisp smell of earth in the air.
It is days like this when I remember what leisure is. It is days like this when I especially feel in touch with words and language. Its days like this when I remember why I refused to stop doing lit, why I continued taking lit all the way to the As and why I so love reading.
Man it actually feels weird to be back, to not be around people, to not be screaming and shouting, to not be cheering, to not be playing games, to not be singing funny songs out loud. The second-storey-window song and the banana song and the baby shark cheer is stuck in my head, and really, I spoke more hokkien in camp then I ever did in my 18 years combined. My parents were so amazed when I recited to them the beng and lian cheer, haha.
We did pretty unbelievable things (okay at least to me, they were unbelievable.) and survived on amazingly little sleep, but yes, it was 50 bucks well spent. We never slept in the same venue for two nights (no we never did sleep in NTU itself. And the the last night at NSSRC isn't counted - we only slept for one hour plus) and the camp was very well organised. All in all I had real good fun, with bruises and scratches and scabs to prove it, haha. As for the Vader people, well we might not be very good in winning games (oh but we won most of the pool games! Yay haha.(: ) but I think we really came a long way, and whatever people might say, we'll always know that we're one of the best ogs.(:
Ah I really miss singing the second storey window and banana song while walking to our next destination and hearing the guys saying the ah lian cheer. Haha you guys really are the cutest. Haha!(:
Oh and I still find myself unconsciously poking other people, saying TukiTuki TukiTuki. Haha stupid game, but I miss TONG KA TONG KA-ing Pohlin wahahaha.
Alrights me tired. Oh on a random note, I'm actually brown! Hohoho. I'm going to go running regularly now I promise I promise! Another thing the camp taught me was how unfit I was. Rahh. Og outing on tues then hall camp next! Sheesh I hope hall camp will be fun too, although I have heard it to be otherwise.
Okay that's all. Night all.(:
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Sunday, July 15, 2007
'Cause I won't be able to say this on the 17th.
"There is but one person in the world, that seems to be unequovically perfect for a person, one person that just seems to fit the bill no matter what. Even little imperfections seem adorable, differences seem such insignificant pebbles on the road, and the feeling of being near that person's simply beyond words. Love is just one way of explaining it." -Yeo Xi-Wei
You silly dear bear, you make my heart sing. It has been a truly amazing 8 months. Thank you, sweetheart.(:
I believe that order and rationale is fundamental in setting the foundation for everything, even in an ambiguous thing like Love.
I won't take that back because it was what I always wanted to say, but I'm sorry I let my temper get the better of me. I'm sorry I hurt you, if I hurt you. ( Heh you seemed rather thick-skinned and really hell-bent on continuing your delusion.) Okay shut up Cynthia and stop being so mean.
Urgh, I don't know why I'm so restless today, I just am. I so badly want to go out for a run, but I'm afraid I'll get cramps and stuff and cause a ruckus. Anyway I do have a camp to go for on Monday, and I desperately need my period to end on time.
Its quite scary, isn't it, how time passes so fast. Just after the weekend, I'll be meeting fellow nbs mates. Hell no, in fact I'll be meeting a small group of them tomorrow. School will start officially start 2 weeks after the camp, and we'll all truly be back to being students again.
Oh yes and barely a week after school starts I'll be taking my driving test, and hopefully, (please God please) pass it. And please, somebody tell me that fixing that instructor isn't a mistake. But the other instructor is so URGGGHHHHHHHH, sometimes I really feel like I could wrench the steering wheel out and bash it over his head, just to shut him up.):
On a random note, I really wish there's an endless supply of ready cash for me to tap on, so much so that I would be able to spend money without being upset that the sum of money left in my bank account does not have a comma in it anymore.)))):
Urgh somebody shoot me.
Baby where are you hmfph. ( Huffs and puffs and gives ultimate grumpy look).
'Kay I shall go read The Da Vinci Code for the 147657643113th time. Bye. stuck in reverse ♥3:46 PM
Thursday, July 12, 2007
(Miss C was sitting on Mr W's lap, because she kept on slipping down the seat. Ya loser I know aha.)
Miss C: Why is it taking so long to come? Mr W: (Shakes violently and does weird hand gestures.) Miss C: (Looking wildly around) Is it coming yet? Mr W: Soon, soon! (Resumes shaking and gesturing.) Miss C: Yeah, let's give it around half an hour. Mr W: Oi! (Gives an insulted look) Miss C: Okay okay er give it 15 minutes? Mr W: You doubt my ability? (Gives an uber insulted look)
Ang moh guy walks past and give us them a very strange look, then continues walking just abit faster.
Mr W: (Suddenly with a spark of realisation) Omg I think he heard! Miss C: (Distractedly) Huh what thing? Oh! Its here! The 155 is here! (Jumps up excitedly and flags bus down.)
Oh yeah baby I definitely believe in your bus-summoning skills. Hahaha!!
Anyways shopping trip today with Qixinthedearfriend was fruitful! Yay I likee!(: stuck in reverse ♥11:27 PM
Tuesday, July 10, 2007
I spent almost the whole day, but I finally finished uploading the Hawaii photos onto Imagestation. Yes I know I'm over a year late, but they're up now! Hee. Man uploading the photos made me remember Hawaii's crystal clear, oh-so-blue waters and the wonderful beaches. If you ever ask me when was my most memorable time in Hawaii, I'd have to say my last night in Hawaii, when we, made jubilant by the Gold and already slightly nostalgic for Hawaii - it was already our last day there, walked the streets of Hawaii till 2am, with the strong breeze and no traffic, speculating if the prostitutes by the streets would attack us, haha. The best was Waikiki beach, where we stayed till about 4am just talking girl talk, knowing that even people nearby could not really hear us; the wind was so strong.(:
Okay so if you're bored and you've got nothing to do, you can view all the 217 Hawaii pictures at http://www.imagestation.com/album/pictures.html?id=2089954793. Because our lousy pok cameras are all battery eating monsters, Qixin, Joan and I took turns taking pictures with our own cameras, so there are some random pictures. Some are also repetitive, so it might be somewhat taxing to look through. Oh and I had my awful haircut just before the trip and I was wearing my ugly specs, and so putting it delicately, I don't look too pretty. You're warned!
To those who are concerned, don't worry, my fringe grew and I'm never ever letting that hair dresser touch it again. My hair have also grown and I had it cut and I grew it and I cut it and I'm growing it again, and its much nicer now. Unfortunately, the pair of ugly specs are still with me. Choices are limited and its not easy to find a pair of nice looking specs when your lenses are 0.7cm thick. Oh and its bloody expensive too.
Haha! stuck in reverse ♥11:55 PM
Monday, July 09, 2007
So I met GrowlyBear for lunch today, and we had Fish&Co. Yay I think they should offer more courses, so Wei won't be that far away most of the time.(:
I finally took action to make that GAP bag mine, and guess what. It -surprise surprise- was sold out. Freak I SHOULD have gotten it when I could. Arghh stupid Cynthia stupid I'm so stupid I could have cried. I almost did, I was so disappointed. Its real nice and I really wanted it, but ha. Never mind. I'm going to compensate by spending money. Retail therapy, let's see if it works. Heh.
But nevertheless, today's still a lovely, beautiful, day.(:
Urgh stupidstupidstupid.
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Sunday, July 08, 2007
Oh, that fresh earthy smell of rain.
Growing up is like having a rug pulled out from under your feet.
It suddenly hit me that my parents are growing old. I don't like.))))): stuck in reverse ♥10:39 PM
How I wish I could feel like how I'm feeling now - comfortable, happy and contented for every second, every minute, and every day of my life.
Oh isn't it just even more perfect that our song came on just as I'm typing this? A (happy) coincidence, but it just feels oh so right.(:
But the tigers come at night, with their voices soft as thunder,
I wish I could just stay like that, so at peace with the world and with myself. I really do wish that there is no need to worry about problems that seem to crop up at every turn, every corner. Especially this one. As they tear your hope apart, and they turn your dream to shame.
I don't have anything else to say. What can I say anyway? Except maybe that things are now put back into place. They're back to exactly where they should be in the first place.
But there are dreams that cannot be, and there are storms we cannot weather.
It may be long overdue, but now I'm getting my share at last.
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Saturday, July 07, 2007
Oh now I remember. I wanted to say that it was all NEA's fault for the raise in dengue cases 'cos they ignored us when we were doing our PW project and so they know naught about Mosquitoes No More. Ha.
Oh and I think the Big Red Button thing is so fun.(: stuck in reverse ♥1:34 PM
Friday, July 06, 2007
Kong Hwa School is in the National Day song! And apparently my brother's in there too. Aha. I think white uniform and red tie makes a good combination.(: stuck in reverse ♥8:06 PM
Put The Big Red Button on your site stuck in reverse ♥2:50 PM
I have too much free time on my hands. It makes me bored (can you tell? I'm blogging almost everyday haha) and therefore results in silly, stupid thoughts. Ahh my intentions don't mean well at all. This is Not Good, especially when I believe this is a turbulent period of time, not only for myself, but for others. And to top it all up, the poor boy is sick.):
Aish.
I really must go out soon with Qixin. That girl was back from Greece donkey days ago. There's no band prac till further notice! I'm really destined to spend the rest of my days bumming around, until before uni starts. Sheesh.
There goes the phone. Three calls in 10 minutes is irritating and having to troop up and down the stairs when I'm trying to blog is driving me crazy. Okay I forgot what I actually wanted to blog about. I'm sorry if you've just wasted your time reading this trashy post, but I'm ready to kill someone now.
'Kay I've got to go downstairs again, my third time in 15 minutes. I'll blog again when I remember what I wanted to blog about. Bye. stuck in reverse ♥1:07 PM
Thursday, July 05, 2007
I can't believe this. Another nail broke. Gosh but my nails are really in compliance with the GSS and my need to expend my uni wardrobe.
I'm gonna be spending big bucks. stuck in reverse ♥6:36 PM
My secondary /pre-u student ez-link with the utterly disgusting photo of me in a Kong Hwa school uniform with the prefect tie has officially expired. I have been trying to stash that ugly piece of plastic in secret compartments and places in my various wallets for some six years in hopes that questing hands would not get hold of it and thus inflict much horrified (them) and mortified (me) looks, but now that I no longer have use for it (or rather, it no longer has use for me), I have this sudden and overwhelming sense of loss.
But I tell you, paying a dollar 10 cents for a 5-minute, 4-bus-stop ride from St. Pat's to Telok Kurau Lorong H in those old, rickety, once-in-every-45-minutes 155 buses is just criminal. Just criminal.
Heh. stuck in reverse ♥12:46 AM
Wednesday, July 04, 2007
cause i got tagged
AGAIN. Omg Louisa. Imma kill you.
(Haha this line brings to mind a certain funny incident in the national library, eh Wei? Haha!)
Five minutes to yourself: how would you spend them, ideally?
Hm. In my own comfy and lovely room daydreaming. There would be a nice cool breeze blowing (like now), of course.(:
Five bucks to spend right now; how would you spend it?
Top up my fare card and take a trip down to the airport. Well, to a stop before the airport, to be exact. Hee.
Five items in your house you could part with, right now, that you hadn't thought of already?
#1) All the clothes in my cupboard that I don't wear and don't dare throw away for fear of offending people. #2) The huge stack of unwanted er.. stuff on my table. Well except for the sec 4 chem stuff cos they're for my brother.
#3) Weird accessories relatives buy for me everytime they go overseas.
#4) Some of the many soft toys that I have.
#5) Okay I honestly can't think of a item #5. I like everything in my house and in my room! Especially in my room.(:
Five items you absolutely, positively could never part with in your house?
#1) Handphone
#2) My bolster!! (Louisa got it right on this one)
#3) My favourite bedsheets.
#4) Laptop
#5) My pencil box and all the stationary in it. Oh and that includes my calculator.
Five words you love?
#1) Miaaaaaowww
#2) Sunshine (the word looks very sunshine-y)
#3) Harow! (Wei does it perfectly, haha.)
#4) Bubbles (so light and carefree, no?)
#5) Cynthia.(:
*On a side note, its amazing how the word "life" appears fresh and contains a more purposeful kind of energy then a lively, bubbly kind of energy eh? But then, who says life is always bubbly and happy. Hm.
Five people I tag.
Me, I'm nice.(: Therefore I shall just tag the first five people who reads this. Aha. stuck in reverse ♥4:23 PM
Tuesday, July 03, 2007
I just remembered that I forgot to check out the Zara pre-hike sale. Aish.
Jesus Did Not Charge - Bill Grace Jesus did not charge for services Oh consumer society, reflect.
Haha funny. But oh how true, how true. stuck in reverse ♥3:45 PM
Monday, July 02, 2007
Les Miserables always always manages to bring me to tears. Its the hope that almost always seem present, even when things will not and will never be, that is so heart-wrenching.
There's a grief that can't be spoken. There's a pain goes on and on. Empty chairs at empty tables Now my friends are dead and gone.
Here they talked of revolution. Here it was they lit the flame. Here they sang about `tomorrow' And tomorrow never came.
From the table in the corner They could see a world reborn And they rose with voices ringing I can hear them now! The very words that they had sung Became their last communion On the lonely barricade at dawn.
Oh my friends, my friends forgive me That I live and you are gone. There's a grief that can't be spoken. There's a pain goes on and on.
Phantom faces at the window. Phantom shadows on the floor. Empty chairs at empty tables Where my friends will meet no more.
Oh my friends, my friends, don't ask me What your sacrifice was for Empty chairs at empty tables Where my friends will sing no more The trumpets are simplyoh, so glorious! in this recording, they give me goosebumps and make me go cold all over, just like on Saturday when I sat down with NTUSB and played Noah's Ark for the first time in almost three years. The whole experience was almost like revisiting the dead -not an apt metaphor i know but I know not how else to describe it. My hands were so cold I couldn't play the running notes. It was weird how after so long, I could still follow the music and remember all the rests and when to join in without counting. It was also seriously annoying how I kept playing the second flute parts without realising it for Noah's Ark and even for Jap Graff, but I suppose playing second flute is that natural to me.
I really have a compulsion to read the lower notes when they put flutes 1 and 2 in the same score argh stupidstupidstupid.
stuck in reverse ♥11:47 PM
♥ PROFILE
Cyn Ong.
Me, I'm 20.
I love rainy, cloudy weather.
The kind with lots & lots of wind.(:
nbs mkting.
♥ LOVES
All that I hold dear.
Books, music, shopping.
Prettycolours, prettythings.
My wrinkled nose grin and Wei's lopsided grin.
It was a good day. See Wei's BIGGG smile.(:
I look retarded, but good food does that to me. It makes me feel all happy and sleepy. 
All these belonged to us, as of 10pm.