Monday, February 25, 2008
Stars over Texas.
It has lovely walls and lovely chairs and lovely tables and lovely, cheerful daisies in their lovely little vases. It has also lovely food served on lovely plates, all presented lovelily. It also has lovely service, the loveliest of all lovelies.
Cafe Oliv, it seems, officially has my heart.
Next time, I want a table with a pretty yellow daisy.
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I miss vj. I miss walking through the park connector in the afternoon after school and seeing fellow victorians. I miss the fuzzy feeling I get when I walk home in the evening and meet fellow victorians cycling or blading back to school. I miss feeling the warm glow inside me when I stay back in vj late at night to study, and I see every other tutorial room with its lights and air conditioning on. I miss seeing random victorians, comfortable in pe shirts, fbts and slippers and snug in jackets, occupying classrooms to study or just chill out. I miss sitting in the treehouse with S43, playing cards and talking. I even miss having to share a classroom with random people, because its the exam period and everyone is studying in school and camping overnight and there are just no more other vacant rooms.
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I've always loved walking hand in hand with you in the moonlight, the night breeze in our hair and the quiet path stretching out endlessly in front of us. Its almost as if there is nothing else in the world. Nothing and no one else in the world but us, us and the flowers and trees and pretty houses, and violins and the smell of the sea.
Today, I had a perfect date.(:
Labels: Gruffy ol' bear, LOVE(:, VJ
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♥10:21 PM
Sunday, February 24, 2008
So you've used my broken bones
and picked them clean.
I don't know when you became this bitter and this ugly. This isn't like you. This isn't like you, so please come back. You don't have to keep it all up and stick through it, you know. Sometimes people know and understand and they forgive you for not being the superwoman you so want to be.
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On a lighter note, the Thailand pictures are up.(:
Us, at the airport.
Did I ever mention how fun the boat rides were?
Vincent and I.
Getting retarded on the boat.
Haha! And this is part of the reason why the trips were so fun.(:
Oh I must talk about this hat. Its really quite a cool hat. It foldable, and when it opens halfway it becomes a fan! Absolutely ingenious! Well, other than the fact that it was wayy to big, that is.
This was another day, when they left me at the hotel to nurse a migrain.): They went to visit the floating market happy and smiling, with the exception of my retarded brother.
Haha this is a priceless. By the way, he looks like this when he is confused most of the time. He just doesn't know it. Lol.
And this Wilson, looking all cute and happy.(:
We found these at the hotel, and it was so adorable we just had to take photos with it.
Mummy's little shop.
Hey no peeping! I'm having a private moment! Haha.
It has always been my brother's dream to take a ride in the DHL balloon, but my mom's afriad of heights, so this is compromise, I think..
Ohhh ya my ambition's to become a Tuk Tuk driver, driving at a safe 30km/hr.
Really, I'm a bimbo at heart,
And a pretty strong one too! Haha.
And so now you know that I didn't eat the monster and the tuktuk is really already halfway up and stuck to the building.
Alrighty now that I've spent almost half my day sitting around and doing little useless things, I should really start work and do something that is actually productive. Outta here. BYE!(:
Labels: Family, Life's little quirks
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♥3:34 PM
Thursday, February 21, 2008
Just so you know
I am still wondering if what was meant as a means to survive is fundamentally flawed. What on earth happened to "equilibruim" and "stability"? And you know what they say, "everything in moderation".
Ah well, at least it keeps me whole and going. Andd, I'm am still overwhelmed by tests and projects. O Saturday, pleeeeease come quick! I think I need to be saved.Labels: Life's little quirks, Random thought
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♥4:07 PM
Wednesday, February 20, 2008
Again and again
And again and again and again.
Boy do you appear in all the unexpected places. Perhaps it was the company I was with, perhaps its was all just too fleeting, but at least this time it didn't feel like you jumped out at me and pushed me off a cliff. Maybe next time I would be able to look into your eyes and we could have a proper conversation, haha. You looked well, though, and truly I am glad.
And you too, my sweet. Its amazing, because we both know where we would see each other, but everytime I meet you, I am always surprised. This time it was so vivid, though. Maybe we too, could hold a proper conversation the next time we meet.
Haha yes I know, I know. In my dreams, then, perhaps. In my dreams.
**
I want to contact you, ma chère étranger, and ask if you're doing okay but I shall not because I dare not, for fear that it will drive you off the deep end again. So I will bite my tongue so that I do not hurt you and just let you be. Know that I only wish the best for you.
Love, me.
p.s. btw, if you ever feel that you're up to it, you can always drop me a mail. Merci beaucoup.(:Labels: Life's little quirks, Mr BG, Random thought
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♥6:46 PM
Monday, February 18, 2008
Those shades of gray.
It has always been absolutes. For me, it has always been either yea or nay, simple and straightforward. In betweens exist, of course, for who can live a life so finely divided?
Then there's this Thing. For it, there will always be this impulse, this need to nit and pick at those shades of gray, to probe and to poke and sometimes fingers bleed and bones ache and hearts break and there are little holes driven into the fabric of it all, and yet still pulling and pushing and stretching, till Gray seems to lose a little Shade or perhaps, gain a little Colour, and then everything goes back to absolutes again.
It occurred to me that what was, on all accounts, a means to survive is now a way of life.Labels: Random thought, Rose-tinted glasses
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♥8:44 PM
Saturday, February 16, 2008
Bears!
Helloo world! Valentine's Day is over, and I'm glad to announce that I've managed to complete my present for Wei only two days late! Hoho.
Okay I was supposed to give it on Valentine's Day but I couldn't finish it on time, despite sewing late into the night. But anyway, I still have to thank Jun Feng for being so patient and bearing (haha!) with me, teaching me the fine art of bear-making into the wee hours of the morning. YiLing too, for well, being a fellow last-minuter and thus suffering the same consequences as me, and Andrew for lending his room for us to cross stitch and sew in, well into the night.
Lesson learnt: Start sewing projects early!
Alrighty pictures of my very first hand-made bear coming rightup!
The hand-made bear and the cuddly and extremely huggable Valentine Bear sitting together on my bed! By the way, I love my new bedsheets! Pretty pretty!(:
The bear up close. I still think the limbs are a wee bit too long and the bead a tad too small. Hmm.
All together now, with the lovely, pretty box holding my valentine's day presents from Wei.The flowers are absent from the picture, though! Ah wells.
Valentine's day. Valentine's day was spent indulging. We went looking for our favourite foods, and had hokkien mee at Food Republic in Suntec for lunch, and assorted pastries from SwissBake and Delifrance for dinner. The rest of the time was spent at two of our favourite places, Gloria Jean's and East Coast Park, holed up and reclaiming abit of us-time. It was altogether a quiet affair, cosy and dreamy.
I like.(:
Labels: Love
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♥9:16 PM
Tuesday, February 12, 2008
Exhausted
The Bangkok trip was utterly exhausting. Bangkok is as always - polluted, loud and impatient with its terrible, terrible traffic. How these people manage to avoid accidents amaze me.
Anyhows I'm back now, and the fact that I didn't manage to squeeze in any bit of studying time into my holidays doesn't seem to bode well. Tests are coming up, and everything is happening all at once and all at one go. Everything seems to be important and demanding attention, and I find myself caught up in some intricate maze with seemingly infinite forks and paths and openings, and there is everywhere and nowhere to go.
This is one of those times when you feel that the world is moving too fast, too fast for you to catch up. This is one of those times when you were just rambling along and minding your own business, when suddenly, accidentally, you find yourself left behind. This is one of those times when you really really want to just let it all go and shout STOP!
And everything stops and time freezes and then now, and then finally you are all alone, a ghost of what you have been and just only a sliver of the moon.Labels: Life's little quirks
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♥11:19 PM
Wednesday, February 06, 2008
Isn't it weird how little cuts hurt so much?
Isn't it funny how I've managed to keep it all in for the past few days, only to lose it all upon a stumble?
Ha, self-pity is powerful indeed.
But damn, my knee hurts. My elbow too. Alot alot.)):Labels: Hall life, Life's little quirks
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♥1:21 PM
Friday, February 01, 2008
The Way I Do.
This song always brings me back to early last year, when things back then were still the same. I'll experience that rush of adrenaline I get when I wake up early in the morning to the smell of rain and the sometimes stiff and biting morning breeze, and that indescribable feeling when I prepare myself for work with your songs playing softly from my speakers. Wonder at the beauty of dawn, the sense of peace that beautiful mornings bring me, bliss because I was awake to witness the sky lighten up and the world wake, and not forgetting the wisps of sleep still clinging on. Altogether a heady mixture.
But now things are changing, and we can't go back to our comfort zone. Whatever happens, we'll work together and see where this takes us, oui?
Gentle mornings. Gentle gentle Dawn. I love.
Like what you said, this song is us, to the nines.
The Way I Do - Marcos Hernandez
Your kiss, your smile, your mind
You're sunlight in my eyes
I miss your breath on my neck
When we whisper in the night
Didn't wanna want you
Didn't wanna need you so bad
Didn't wanna wake up
And find that I was falling so fast
Didn't wanna need you
Didn't wanna need anyone
Now look what you've done
Now I can't go on without you
I'm naked, I can't fake it.
And I'm not that strong without you
Never thought I could love you the way I do
Way I do...
Your touch, your skin, can't believe the way you let me in
Don't rush tonight, I need you like the ocean needs the tide.
Didn't wanna want you
Didn't wanna need you so bad
Didn't wanna wake up
And find that I was falling so fast
Didn't wanna need you
Didn't wanna need anyone
Now look what you've done
Now I can't go on without you
I'm naked, I can't fake it.
And I'm not that strong without you
Never thought I could love you the way I do.
I always thought I would stand on my own
Climb a mountain top all alone
Relying, depending on no one
Now look what you've done
Now I can't go on without you
I'm naked, I can't fake it.
Now I'm not that strong without you
Never thought I could love you the way I do.
Never thought I could love you
Never thought I could need you
Never thought I could want you, baby
The way I do
Never thought I could love you
Never thought I could need you
Never thought I could want you
The way I do
I love you
I need you
I want you
the way I do
I love you
I need you
I want you
the way I do
` Let's keep it this way.Labels: Nostalgia
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♥1:30 AM
And so now you know that I didn't eat the monster and the tuktuk is really already halfway up and stuck to the building.
The hand-made bear and the cuddly and extremely huggable Valentine Bear sitting together on my bed! By the way, I love my new bedsheets! Pretty pretty!(: 
The bear up close. I still think the limbs are a wee bit too long and the bead a tad too small. Hmm.
All together now, with the lovely, pretty box holding my valentine's day presents from Wei.The flowers are absent from the picture, though! Ah wells.