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♥9:10 PM
Sunday, December 23, 2007
Officially 19.(:
So, amidst all cheerleading and bridge practices and all the preparation for IH, my birthday's came and gone and now it will be Christmas in two day's time. Time is really passing by fast, especially this December. Exam results will be released on the day of bridge competition, and then school will resume and with it, intensive cheerleading pracs.
Anyway, my birthday! I had a wonderful, amazing birthday, but then, everything is wonderful and amazing when spent with Wei.(:(: Its all Wei Magic. Haha!:D
Okay first and foremost, Wei got us a room at the Pan Pacific. The room was beautiful, but sadly we forgot to bring out cameras, so we couldn't take a picture of it. That will explain the lack of photos this time, but I'm trying my best to put up what I can. Serious! Here's the chocolates I managed to keep as a memento. (Please excuse the two empty spaces. I couldn't resist. Hee!)
We settled in and ate some of the little adorable cheesecakes Wei got for me (they had a sweet little strawberry heart covered by a layer of jelly) before going for our movie.
Yepps Gold Class tickets to watch the Golden Compass! Yay! Haha. The whole experience was amazing. The seats (recliners, more like) were comfy, complete with adjustable leg rests. Blankets were provided too, and there were only about 30 people in the cinema. Between every two seats there's a table to hold the plates of food or glasses of wine you can order at the Gold Class Lounge before the movie. Now how cool is that!
Oh and I thought that The Golden Compass was quite good! I don't understand why so many people butchered the movie, and if there's any anti-Christ connotations or symbolism in the movie, I've certainly missed it. Perhaps I'm just enthralled by the idea of a person's character being reflected in an animal, and the fantasy of it all. But then again, maybe its because its Gold Class, and everything's nice in Gold Class, haha.
Then it was dinner at Shin Kushiya at Suntec. One thing I must say, the duck soba was really really fabulous. It just slides down your throat and it was so good, so good, especially if you're having a bad throat. Okay I'm getting little shivers of delight up and down my arms just thinking about it. Hee!
Okay now for my presents!
Wei got me something like that last year too, but the necklace this year's more expensive and the compiled CD has got more beautiful songs. Thank you, love!(:(: Oh and thank you John for helping out!(:(:
It was back to Pan Pac after that and guess what happened the next day at 10am! Room service! Yay!! Haha! The trolley (is it a trolley?) was beautifully set up, and the food was pretty awesome. My eggs benedict were good and Wei's baked scrambled eggs with bacon and salmon was just simply love. Oh YUM YUM YUM. It was all lovely and great and beautifully and painstakingly planned. And needless to say, I think this birthday beats all the others hands down, except perhaps my 18th birthday. But then that's a different thing altogether.
Thank you for everything, Wei. You're the best. Oh and a happy belated 13th month! *huggs* I love you so, sweetheart.(:
Labels: Gruffy ol' bear, LOVE(:
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♥10:23 PM
Thursday, December 13, 2007
Its what you do to me.
I love walks home. Solitary, quiet and leisurely walks along the park connector in beautiful weather, with the breeze in my hair, the sun and the shade of the trees. No traffic, no cars, no hustle and bustle of life, and no hurry to go anywhere. Pure Me-time. As always, walks alone gives me time to think.
Jodi Picoult's books, no matter how sappy they are, are always thought-provoking. Having just finished one of her books (it was The Pact this time), I was still caught up in Chris and Emily's story, and was mulling over the big L - How does it feel like to love someone like that your whole life? Is it possible to love someone that much? Can I possibly love someone that much? - when inevitably my thoughts turned to "Have I ever loved someone that much?", and BAM from there it was a one-way trip down the memory lane.
The first person I thought of was you. Unsurprising, since I was walking down the stretch of park connector I remembered walking with you. A simple act of chasing away those boys. However, it was more than that. It was a moment of truth that shone right through everything else. Perhaps it isn't - no scratch that. I know it isn't, cannot be the same now, Mr Big Guy, but it was the truth then, pure and simple. And for that I thank you.
And then my thoughts turned to growly.
You know the feeling when there are memories you want to remember? You re-enact the whole moment in your mind, wanting to live through it again, but the happiness sort of falls short of expectations and the whole thing becomes anti climatic, because at the back of your mind you know that somewhere along the lines you had a hand in making the moment come through; you hinted and gave clues, you made things easy. You had expectations.
Well I was thinking, remembering my moments with growly. Pure, untainted moments of delight and bliss. The time at the beach when you swung and twirled me round and round you, enclosing us in a circle of love, radius approximately 150cm. When we cha cha-ed and samba-ed and danced silly dances together with the waves. When I fell asleep watching the sun-rise with you. Then there was the time when you cradled me in your arms at the bus stop, tucked my head under your chin and sang Oliver James' Greatest Story Ever Told to me softly. And then there was another time when you came to hall unannounced at nearly midnight, just so that the next day I wouldn't be alone on a relatively early morning train to the airport. I was having cheerleading prac and you didn't know where the dance room was and didn't want to interrupt, so you just sat outside at the bus stop alone in the chilly night, reading a book in the feeble light to pass time, and basically nearly froze your ass off. I didn't know you were coming and I was talking to you on the phone, and I didn't recognise you until you were almost right in front of me, still talking to me on your phone.
Moments to cherish. Thank you for giving me your love, Wei. You're just simply splendid.
You know, I actually hoped that the park connector wouldn't end, so I could just keep on walking and walking, thinking and remembering. I really love solitary walks.Labels: Life's little quirks, Love, Mr BG, Nostalgia, Reads
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♥3:14 PM
Tuesday, December 11, 2007
I almost gave in to tears of nostalgia when I sat down at the piano. It has been such a long time. Too long. Too long since I've taken out my dusty music scores, too long since I last swiped away dust on the piano cover. The keys felt insensitive and heavy under my fingers - signs of disregard and neglect.
It really has been a long time since I've last made music, last moved with music. The piano - crescendo - fortissimo - and back to piano, cantabile, gentle, gently, fingers gently caressing the keys was like a balm to my soul. The shaping of music. The gentle ending of a beautiful phrase that feels so right. Feel, feeling music.
How did I ever thought I could live without making music? I've already lost a part of myself with the discontinuation of banding, and so no, I'm determined to keep my piano playing. Singing is good and fun and all, but somehow it is not the same. Playing on the piano can never match up to playing in a band too, but it was a part of me ever since I was 5, and I know now that it will always be a part of me, no matter how hard I try to ignore it's existence.
And always, feel, feeling music.Labels: Nostalgia
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♥1:42 PM
Sunday, December 09, 2007
It beginning to look alot like Christmas!
I had a late night chat with Wayne over supper after cheerleading a few days ago, and we were talking about his lost love - I was giving him reasons why he should stop emo-ing, and he was telling me why he can't. Despite it all, I still stand by my theory. Call me a cold-hearted pessimistic bitch, but thing is, life isn't always cream and roses. When life's a bitch, you've gotta raise up to the occasion and challenge it. Fight it, or it will drag you under. And by God, if you can't gather enough strength to break free of it then under is where you'll stay. Its quite a depressing thing, really, not being able to enjoy and to see the beauty of life.
Alrights maybe I'm going a little overboard with all this talk about enjoying life, seeing how something inside me has just disappeared recently. Gone. Extinguished. Emptied. Perhaps the stress of upcoming competitions' getting to me, but I definitely find myself laughing a lot less lately. Although I know I will eventually find myself back like how I did the last time, I must admit that the increasing frequency of such occurrences is rather worrying. Bah. Let's just hope that the events happening late this week and next week will cheer me up.(:
Anyways, I had my first tennis lesson with Wei today! Haha. It was fun and I enjoyed it, although my right arm is aching now. But hey, no pain no gain, right?
Oh and I hope Wei would bring me to the Safra gym soon! I badly need to work out, if not for my own vanity then for the sake of my poor bases. I'm beginning to see why almost all cheerleaders are so skinny and like, size zero. They're afraid of squashing the guys.
Okay this is a rather random post, really, so I shall just stop my ramblings. Till then! Good nights!
P.S. I'm feeling the Christmas Cheer!! Yay I love Christmas! *beams* (:(:Labels: Life's little quirks
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♥1:00 AM
Tuesday, December 04, 2007
One-Ninety.(:
At last! The promised photos from the anniversary dinner.(:
Wei and I.
And again.(:
One-Ninety, the restaurant in Four Seasons Hotel. The place was really cosy and absolutely charming.
The menu. See, its customized and personalized! *beams* And yepps it was a very pleasant surprise. Thank you love, for the huge amount of thought and effort put into this dinner!(:
Appetizers! I can't believe this is actually mushroom. It was so good so good. The dip was wonderful too!
The sharp tang of the Bleu cheese was muted by the slightly salty Risotto Balls.
Now for the main course! My seared cod fish proved to be very refreshing. However the key that made this dish so delightful was the vegetables and the soy vinaigrette. I have never tasted such delicious vegetables before. The soy vinaigrette went very, extremely well with them.
Wei's pork chop. Or rather, what was left of the pork chop, haha! We forgot to take pictures of the main course before we ate. What a waste.): Not too bad, though I still prefer my cod fish.(:(:
Dessert!
Warm chocolate cake. Nothing too special, but chocolate cake and lots of warm chocolate is always such a delight. Mmmmm.(:
Omg, but this cheesecake ice cream and the frozen strawberries in it is to die for.
My favourite! Creme Brulee! Haha.(: They actually don't have creme brulee on their dinner menu, but Wei persuaded them to save some for me from their lunch buffet, because he knows I love creme brulee.(:(:(:(:
The people at One-Ninety were very sweet, and they gave us this complimentary chocolate cake, which turned out to be amazing too. I love the cake's biscuit base. Oh YUM.
Now that dinner's done, its time for presents.
A scrapbook of pictures tracking our journey. Pictures of our favourite hangouts, places that mean so much to us. Places where we laughed, chilled and just purely enjoyed each other's company. Places of love and comfort.
It was an evening filled with warmth. A perfect date, a dream date. Happiness and bliss. 'Thank you's seem inadequate in the face of so much energy and time put in to pull off such a magical evening, but still, thank you all the same, my sweet, sweet boy, for your tremendous thought and efforts. I have never felt so loved.(:
We have indeed come a long way, but here's to even many more months.
I love you Raoul.
Labels: Gruffy ol' bear, LOVE(:, Yums.
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♥8:34 PM
Sunday, December 02, 2007
Blown over.
Phew. At least the whole episode is over. I think. Curiosity has indeed killed the cat, and in my case, I don't have 9 lives to live. If I ever have to go through it all again, I don't think I'll have the strength or courage to deal with it the way I did. Or maybe I will. It's against my personal principles, and my guilty conscience will weigh weigh weigh weigh weigh me down, but ah wells. Its all over now, and I've handled it in the best way I knew how. The rest is up to you. And for your sake girl, I really hope that time will heal all wounds, and then maybe...
Maybe.
Lesson learnt: Keep your nose to yourself, and for heaven's sake girl, don't pry.Labels: Life's not-so-little quirks
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♥12:58 PM
Wei and I.
One-Ninety, the restaurant in Four Seasons Hotel. The place was really cosy and absolutely charming.
Appetizers! I can't believe this is actually mushroom. It was so good so good. The dip was wonderful too! 
The sharp tang of the Bleu cheese was muted by the slightly salty Risotto Balls.